Monday, September 25, 2006

Fattening process:

It’s not working! I just can’t gain those 3 damn Kilos. I check my weight weekly for the last month and I am still stuck at 47 Kg.

Not that I am complaining, I am eating well and I suffer no health problems of any sort. Not to mention that I know how helpful it can be when you need some favor from someone on the street or in a bus.

But what worries me is that I can’t control my weight. Every once and a while someone tells me I lost weight. It’s meant to be a compliment (and usually exaggerated) but eventually it becomes annoying. But then you check your weight and you realize that indeed you are often losing weight. And still that was never a problem, I always told people that I don’t go through any diet, sometimes I’d say it’s because of the college stress or work… And BESIDES, I can always gain back all that weight if I try to, right?

Well, I never tried to gain weight, I am not anorexic! But then, this summer I kind of freaked out when I reached 47 Kilos, I never dropped under 50Kg. This is not normal, I mean before reaching 18 I thought that weight can’t be stable, but now I’m 21.

I should be 54,55 Kg, I haven’t reached any critical level, I have regular periods I have no nausea thus I am not going to see any doctor or anything (It’d be silly to go see a doctor for such a reason when I am neglecting).

I told my mom that I dropped under 50 but she didn’t do any weird reaction, she didn’t tell me to stop walking barefoot, she didn’t tell me that I think too much and she didn’t advise me to stop doing * THAT * habit with all the psychological and physical exhaustion…

I’m proud of you mom, or maybe was it because I mentioned it in front of my dad and uncle and there fore didn’t feel it would be appropriate to start.

10 comments:

shlemazl said...

I know exactly how you feel, sweetpea. Last months I lost 1kg. Another 78 months and I'll be totally wasted.

Chris in MB said...

I understand also, when I'm really busy & stressed I just don't feel hungry. Can go all day without eating; living on chocolate bars, coffee & beer with 4-5 hours sleep each night. Not such a good thing.

How tall are you anyhow?

As long as you're healthy & don't have those nasty boney hips or rears you see on some very skinny girls you should be fine! :P

Pazuzu said...

Well I wouldn't want to reach 78 but 55 would be fine!

shlemazl said...
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shlemazl said...

Go to gym. It's the best way to control your weight. In fact weight isn't important, but the physical condition is.

Jos said...

You should stop walking barefoot, and you'll be OK! :) I'm kiddin akid :)

I'm sure it's stress and studies dear.. mental activity takes too much calories don't you agree?

Pazuzu said...

a gym? yeah right! I could spend that time blogging reading or just watching TV or even arguing with my mom... I'll go to a gym when I'll want to look at people doing "activities"

Jos:
yes I suppose it's the stress or whatever, what was worrying me was that I can't gain that weight back but it's ok

shlemazl said...

Bloody hell, girl. I thought I was a sex maniac, but this...

Sweaty stinking people in gyms don't make wanna look at their "activities". The only time I did get a bit curious was when pants fell of a girl on a running machine without her noticing.

Pazuzu said...

Shlemazl... that's because you're too OLD now :P

shlemazl said...

True :-)