It’s not working! I just can’t gain those 3 damn Kilos. I check my weight weekly for the last month and I am still stuck at 47 Kg.
Not that I am complaining, I am eating well and I suffer no health problems of any sort. Not to mention that I know how helpful it can be when you need some favor from someone on the street or in a bus.
But what worries me is that I can’t control my weight. Every once and a while someone tells me I lost weight. It’s meant to be a compliment (and usually exaggerated) but eventually it becomes annoying. But then you check your weight and you realize that indeed you are often losing weight. And still that was never a problem, I always told people that I don’t go through any diet, sometimes I’d say it’s because of the college stress or work… And BESIDES, I can always gain back all that weight if I try to, right?
Well, I never tried to gain weight, I am not anorexic! But then, this summer I kind of freaked out when I reached 47 Kilos, I never dropped under 50Kg. This is not normal, I mean before reaching 18 I thought that weight can’t be stable, but now I’m 21.
I should be 54,55 Kg, I haven’t reached any critical level, I have regular periods I have no nausea thus I am not going to see any doctor or anything (It’d be silly to go see a doctor for such a reason when I am neglecting).
I told my mom that I dropped under 50 but she didn’t do any weird reaction, she didn’t tell me to stop walking barefoot, she didn’t tell me that I think too much and she didn’t advise me to stop doing * THAT * habit with all the psychological and physical exhaustion…
I’m proud of you mom, or maybe was it because I mentioned it in front of my dad and uncle and there fore didn’t feel it would be appropriate to start.