I was feeling sorry for myself
Now what’s odd is that I have so many ideas racing and shouting in my mind and I need to get them out of my system, but I feel stuck, blocked, silent.
Of course I know I will need to snap out of this, slap myself and to just say: I don’t even care. I also need to socialize less since I have been overwhelmed with this terrible feeling of low self esteem. I have been feeling ugly and unwanted. Hell!! I can’t even enjoy masturbating anymore, I terribly need to snap out of this one?!
So what a better cure than NOT going out, NOT chatting and focusing more on reading, sleeping, eating, blogging and perhaps… studying? Well, frankly I’d do anything to free myself from this shit! I really don’t need this. So let’s start the snapping out process. AND I will start with the easiest thing on my list: finishing and posting all the drafts I have.