Saturday, May 20, 2006

This sucks!


Mom: Today Fadi Tébét was talking on the radio, he was talking about a TV episode on some Lebanese channel that he refused to name, because he has nothing against it (how generous of him!). This Show was depicting the Christian society as “supportive to Homosexual behavior” or as we call in the Arab world: “Sexual Deviance”. They hosted a priest and didn’t host any Sheikh! (No fucking way, they are disrespecting the sectarian balance! How could they! They are promoting the civil war... To your arms, we’re going to WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR!)

Moi: Mom. Fadi Tébét is exaggerating and taking it out of its context. I know the episode he’s talking about and it wasn’t like that… (I get interrupted)

Mom: Don’t be like that, why would he go on the radio and lie about such a thing, he did mention that he has nothing against anyone. (she has a point) How do you know about this anyway, you watched the episode? (Touché)

Moi: No but I have some Homosexual online friends and they told me.

She gives me a pale desperate look and says: Well are you one of them?

Predictable huh?

Moi: I am not saying he’s lying, just that he took it out of its context. Because in his mind he can’t really think of Homosexuality without expressing some sort of resentment. But as I was saying, the episode was not saying that Christians support …




This conversation continued for quite a while, and eventually my Mom and I agreed to disagree, and besides the big deal’s not about the argument we had, she’s been taught that Homosexuality’s obnoxious since she was a child, I don’t think there’s anything I might ever say that might change her mind, more precisely change her heart.

But what bothers me is the point when I conform to her that I am not lesbian. I have told her so thousands of times, and she always believed me. But this is the first time that she asks me, and this time I think she doesn’t believe me. I don’t know. I feel depressed about this; I didn’t want her to feel like this. I suppose it’s weird for a heterosexual to defend homosexuality so much, but I don’t “over defend it” I just respond whenever I feel that I should.

5 comments:

jokerman said...

pazuzu
take it easy, your mother is from a different era, she cant get used to the idea of lesbians & gays, maybe she thinks they are deciples of satan. take it easy anyway, its just upsetting as someone who is close to you & does not belive you or understand your stance on such an issue.

Pazuzu said...

Actually, my mom believes they're human being and there fore deserve respect, but the idea disgusts her, she kind of sees them as people who need to be "fixed" like mentally ill or something.
I got used to the thought that I can't help her see things like I see it (it's not my right to change her anyway) but what upset me was that this time she seemed as if she didn't believe I'm not gay. I bet he thinks that I'm just lying to protect her now.

jokerman said...

Problem is, most of them are born like that, they cannot help it as it involves genes. But at least she sees them as human beings, as long as she doesnt start to say they deserve to die or stuff like that.

Pazuzu said...

Yes considering the environment in which she grew up, she's a very tolerant person

Pazuzu said...

Yes considering the environment in which she grew up, she's a very tolerant person