Saturday, May 20, 2006
Mom: Today Fadi Tébét was talking on the radio, he was talking about a TV episode on some Lebanese channel that he refused to name, because he has nothing against it (how generous of him!). This Show was depicting the Christian society as “supportive to Homosexual behavior” or as we call in the Arab world: “Sexual Deviance”. They hosted a priest and didn’t host any Sheikh! (No fucking way, they are disrespecting the sectarian balance! How could they! They are promoting the civil war... To your arms, we’re going to WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR!)
Moi: Mom. Fadi Tébét is exaggerating and taking it out of its context. I know the episode he’s talking about and it wasn’t like that… (I get interrupted)
Mom: Don’t be like that, why would he go on the radio and lie about such a thing, he did mention that he has nothing against anyone. (she has a point) How do you know about this anyway, you watched the episode? (Touché)
Moi: No but I have some Homosexual online friends and they told me.
She gives me a pale desperate look and says: Well are you one of them?
Moi: I am not saying he’s lying, just that he took it out of its context. Because in his mind he can’t really think of Homosexuality without expressing some sort of resentment. But as I was saying, the episode was not saying that Christians support …
This conversation continued for quite a while, and eventually my Mom and I agreed to disagree, and besides the big deal’s not about the argument we had, she’s been taught that Homosexuality’s obnoxious since she was a child, I don’t think there’s anything I might ever say that might change her mind, more precisely change her heart.
But what bothers me is the point when I conform to her that I am not lesbian. I have told her so thousands of times, and she always believed me. But this is the first time that she asks me, and this time I think she doesn’t believe me. I don’t know. I feel depressed about this; I didn’t want her to feel like this. I suppose it’s weird for a heterosexual to defend homosexuality so much, but I don’t “over defend it” I just respond whenever I feel that I should.